I’m sitting here, yes at Starbucks in Massapequa, my home office and I’ve found a source of positive energy that was, a moment ago, a source of energy drain.
I’m working on a digital product and there’s this woman sitting in front of me. Without paying much attention, I sensed she was feeling down, uncomfortable, and need distraction, peace of mind, something to set her at ease.
I gave her my sketch pad and invited her to draw. She drew two pictures of women, sketches. Not bad sketches, but her face was lit up like a child. She was very happy, 10 minute later. I felt good about it and was a little surprised by how fast she changed. Nice.
Then, as I built my product, I need take some shots of myself. I had her take them with my iPhone. 20 minutes later, lots of fun, we had a bunch of shots. That’s when I figured out she was down on her luck in life. Down or experience change, etc. Who am I to decide down or up or whatever.
I got uncomfy. She asked for my number and started talking a about spending time together and I got a little weirded out. Those were my reactions. I thought she was going to be trouble for me, needy and seeking someone to support her … all kinds of thoughts. I felt like I had to get out of there. I’ve had friends in the past who latched on to me and I felt very bad/odd/weird. I don’t fully understand it, but it was what it was.
But, this is where it got fun. I hope we can call this spiritual development or a higher state of being for myself. I didn’t do anything special, except just realized that whoever she is, she is and it’s her life, not for me to judge. Just the same, my feelings and thoughts, the weird ones I was having, were mine. I felt a detachment from it - a watching over them and a seeing of the situation from 10 feet away as if it were a tv show.
Then I stopped feeling weird and started feeling good. I bought her tea and got her almonds for being my photographer. She felt great about it. A calm and ease came over me. A burst of good energy filled me.
Of late I’ve noticed two states of being I can classify myself in:
1. Fear, worry, concerned, confused state, and
2. Calm, easy, loving, energetic, happy-to-be state.
And I’m noticing a better ability to be/move/stay in #2.
Nice if it can be an instant choice whenever I want.
Ever been in a similar negative state? Think it possible to turn it positive? By choice? Practice? Perspective? Anything along this lines come up for you? Love to hear about it. Comment below.